Feb 16, 2015

The Day I Temporarily LOST My Mind.........

I texted my hubby one day told him that I wanted another baby!  YES, I know!  I lost my mind that day........actually it lasted for a couple of weeks!  My kids had ALL gone to school for the first time, I was in a new house, in a new city, and felt bored!  I mean I had LOTS to do with the house and all but just felt like I needed something to take care of!  A baby!!!!!  I mean that is what I have done daily for 18 years and now it seemed over.   Hubby not only said no but HELL NO!  LOL!  Then probably wondered if he needed to have me admitted!!!

I actually felt somewhat depressed and my anxiety was through the roof for a few months.  I would get up, take them all to school, come home, clean, watch Heartland (I was obsessed for a while), cook supper, pick up kids, bath time, homework, then go to bed!  Wake up next day and REPEAT!

During that time I gained about 15lbs too!  Not good.  Doesn't make you feel any better......only worse!

During this time any time I went to Kingsville, a town 20 minutes from where we live now,  I would drive by a certain gym and watch them workout!  It looked SO HARD!  And it is!  Finally after texting with the owner for a few weeks I finally got the nerve to go in!

That day, as I read someone else say about the gym I go to, was a game changer for me!  It really was!  I have never worked out this hard in my life.  I have never been so excited about what's to come with myself, my health and my body in a really long time!
My trainer is great!  He's tough but encouraging.  He has faith in me when I don't and he pushes me to do my best which is always more than I think I can!

If I could bottle up and sell that feeling you get after a really good workout I would be a rich lady!

Today I had to bring my three youngest ones with me and I was watching them play and thought to myself that I hope they never struggle with their weight like I do and I am going to make sure that they don't!  I want fitness, health and working out to be a part of their lives from this day forward!  They will be happier and healthier for it!

During these eight weeks I have not had an anxiety attack and have felt happier than I have in a really long time!  I look forward to each morning so that I am the best mom I can be to my FIVE kids that I have!!!!!
I am blessed!  They are all my biggest fans!!!

Me dead lifting 165#
On average I burn anywhere from 500-800 calories per workout!

1 comment:

Christy said...

A baby!!?!! Call me next time. ;) You look great! And strong! Way to go! Love you!