Feb 26, 2015

What a Typical Workout Is for Me!

Today’s work out!

Row for 10 minutes to warm up

Bench Press and Push ups

(Right now for more than just a few reps I can only bench press the bar which is about 45 lbs....sometimes he will add tens but I can't do to many of those!) I have horrible upper body strength.  I still have to do push ups on my knees but they are getting better!

(1 BP then 10 push ups, 2 BP then 9 push ups, 3 BP then 8 push ups…..all the way down to 10 BP and 1 push up)

Then I have 8 minutes to do…. (I completed one and a half rounds)

200 meter row

6 steps overs on the box

10 hanging knee ups (hanging from the bar and bringing your knees up)

15 shoulder press  (again I use the 45 lb bar)

20 kettle bell swings

30 jump ropes singles

Repeat that but only had 7 minutes to do it and again completed one a half rounds but shaved a minute off my time!


Today I burned about 500 calories and my heart rate got up to about 175 during that time.  I mostly stay at 160 which is good.  It got to 185 one time which isn't to good......or could be bad!  

I am in my second week of 5 day a week training and I still love it!  I can't wait to see my results a year from now.  I am already seeing myself getting stronger and things are getting somewhat easier for me.  SOME THINGS!  Not all!!!  

My body is changing and I am still working on getting the nutrition part right but that will come I know.  I am educating myself and reading everything I can on nutrition and how your metabolism and body works.  

I am thankful for my trainer and friends I have made at my gym that push me to do my best which is always more than I think I can!

I DEAD LIFTED 195#'s last night!  That is HUGE for me!!!!  I was proud!  

I could go on and on about what my gym has done for me but I will stop now!  That is another day!  Have a great day friends......it's beautiful here at Sarita Farms!  Do something active!!!!!

Feb 16, 2015

The Day I Temporarily LOST My Mind.........

I texted my hubby one day told him that I wanted another baby!  YES, I know!  I lost my mind that day........actually it lasted for a couple of weeks!  My kids had ALL gone to school for the first time, I was in a new house, in a new city, and felt bored!  I mean I had LOTS to do with the house and all but just felt like I needed something to take care of!  A baby!!!!!  I mean that is what I have done daily for 18 years and now it seemed over.   Hubby not only said no but HELL NO!  LOL!  Then probably wondered if he needed to have me admitted!!!

I actually felt somewhat depressed and my anxiety was through the roof for a few months.  I would get up, take them all to school, come home, clean, watch Heartland (I was obsessed for a while), cook supper, pick up kids, bath time, homework, then go to bed!  Wake up next day and REPEAT!

During that time I gained about 15lbs too!  Not good.  Doesn't make you feel any better......only worse!

During this time any time I went to Kingsville, a town 20 minutes from where we live now,  I would drive by a certain gym and watch them workout!  It looked SO HARD!  And it is!  Finally after texting with the owner for a few weeks I finally got the nerve to go in!

That day, as I read someone else say about the gym I go to, was a game changer for me!  It really was!  I have never worked out this hard in my life.  I have never been so excited about what's to come with myself, my health and my body in a really long time!
My trainer is great!  He's tough but encouraging.  He has faith in me when I don't and he pushes me to do my best which is always more than I think I can!

If I could bottle up and sell that feeling you get after a really good workout I would be a rich lady!

Today I had to bring my three youngest ones with me and I was watching them play and thought to myself that I hope they never struggle with their weight like I do and I am going to make sure that they don't!  I want fitness, health and working out to be a part of their lives from this day forward!  They will be happier and healthier for it!

During these eight weeks I have not had an anxiety attack and have felt happier than I have in a really long time!  I look forward to each morning so that I am the best mom I can be to my FIVE kids that I have!!!!!
I am blessed!  They are all my biggest fans!!!

Me dead lifting 165#
On average I burn anywhere from 500-800 calories per workout!

Feb 10, 2015

Update to my Fitness Training.........

I am going into my 8th week of working out and after a rough start I am happy to say I am down 4lbs and getting stronger!  One more pound to reach my 5 lb goal for each month!  I didn't do it in January but I am confident that I can loose another pound in February!
It's not easy and lifting weights makes it slower as you are building muscle too.  I keep having to remind myself of that and try not to weigh to often!  Some even say throw the scale away!  One day!!!!!

I go Monday, Wednesday, Friday and try to get at least one class in there too.  Last week was the first time I worked out five days in a row.  Three one on ones with my trainer and two classes!

I love it.  It's is becoming an addiction.  I can't wait to be able to do simple things easily....like push ups and burpees!  I am NOT good at burpees!

Some of you know that I have horrible anxiety at times and I feel like I haven't had any in the last few weeks so I know that working out and better foods have really helped that.

My energy level is much better.  My want to eat right is better than ever!  (did that make sense?)

I spend any free time I have researching eating clean and nutrition and I love reading about real people that have made this transformation and even fitness experts and what they have to say!  I can't get enough of it lately!

I am so excited for myself and for what is to come!

Next week starts FIVE days one on one training!  Pray for me!!!  :)

PS....when I loose ten pounds I will post a side by side picture of day one and that day!

Feb 3, 2015

Winning the War in our Heads!

Let me start by saying that this is not easy to talk about.......I have never really shared this part of me with anyone but my husband.  (Poor guy)  I was thinking that there has got to be more than just me that feels this way so I should share!  So here goes.......

That has been the title of the sermon each week at church!  So far he has touched on giving up, temptation and this week was tests......how the Lord tests us and Satan tempts us!  He gave us tips on winning the war in your head and all of those tips are really found in one amazing book!  The Bible!

Sometimes my head is my biggest battle!  I have battled a war in my head pretty much my whole life.  I can know something to be true and good but my head can tell me something else.  I have always battled the devil whispering to me that I am not good enough at anything or deserving at something......it's gotten worse the older I have gotten!

I am not good enough.
I am not loved by my husband.
I am not skinny and may never be.
I am not pretty.
I am not a good mother.
I am not a good daughter/daughter in law.
I am not a good wife.
I am not a good friend.
I am not smart.
I am clumsy.
I am not a good Christian.
I can't do this.
I can't do that.
I worry about what others think of me.
I worry about my kids....their future, their choices, the failures, you name it.
I worry about almost everything.
I have anxiety.  I am good at hiding it sometimes but it's always there! This to has gotten really bad the last five years or so.

And probably a lot more things I can't think of right now...........

You name it and I have thought it about myself and you tell me about something I will worry the socks off of it.  BUT..... and this will sound weird......I have always been a confident person to others.....or at least appear that way.  I only battle myself and my own mind.

I am the least confident when it comes to my husband.  I don't know why.  He's a wonderful husband that has never done anything to make me feel that way but I guess coming from a divorced family the devil knows how to play with my thoughts and my mind!  I am always waiting for him to leave.  I know that I drive him crazy sometimes with my thoughts and worries but he always seems to have the right words or scripture to calm my worry at that time.

SO....I tell you all of this to also tell you what I am learning and how I am working at winning this battle within.

First- I am reading the word almost every day.  I look up scriptures about worry and anxiety and I read all I can on how to win this battle through his Word and promises to us!

Second-  I am working out!  I have NEVER worked out like I am doing at this time.  While I may not be skinny or fit YET I feel more confident in myself.  I tell myself each day that I am closer then I was yesterday.  I firmly believe that exercise brings out the happy endorphins and I promise you it is a feeling you will love!  Try it!
I crave my gym time.!  I want to be strong, I want to reach my fitness goals and even beyond!  I want to not worry about what my hubby thinks when he looks at my body but most of all I want to love my body!   I want hubby to be proud of the hard work I put in to look good for him! (I know he already is because he tells me BUT I long for the day that I am just maintaining my rock hard body!!!  LOL)
Let's face it.....I know being skinny isn't everything but it sure feels good to wear whatever you want! It does NOT feel good to go shop for something to wear to an event only to come home depressed.  I am sick of those days for sure!

Third- I have changed my eating habits.  This is going to help me loose weight and just be healthier all around!  In turn I am instilling this into my kids and hubby!  Praise- the other day we were coming home from my moms and my boys wanted Jack in The Box so I got them two tacos each and they couldn't eat them!  They threw them away because we don't eat fast food anymore so now it's gross to us!

Fourth (Not really 4th)- I pray!  I pray pray pray!!!!  I rebuke the bad thought the minute it enters my mind.  (I am not alway successful at rebuking it but a lot of times I am!)  I try to replace it with something good.  A good memory or a good thought or a scripture that speaks to me!

Am I winning yet?  No!  Am I trying?  Yes!  But I will tell you it's an everyday battle but one that I will win!