Dec 18, 2014

Day 2- Fitness Training........

WOW!  That was hard!  We warmed up and then got to work!  He had me do the rowing machine until I got to 20 calories and that stuff is hard!  It takes a minute and a half of fast, heavy rowing to reach 20 calories when it feels like I should have burned 400 CALORIES!!!!  Not!  That goes to show you how hard you have to work.
I had to do that three times along with squats and laying down bench press move.  Not sure what it's called exactly.  It was hard!  The bar is 35lbs and he put 10lbs on each end totaling 55lbs I was lifting.  I am weak.....that was hard!  But it was fun to just let it drop behind my head when I was done!  Made me feel like the rest of the beasts that are in there!!!!  Then I had to push what was called a sled and you go slow and hard and it makes you feel like you are pushing it uphill!  I did three rounds of all of that and after an hour my eyes were black and I was drenched in sweat but right now I feel great!!!!!  Glad it's over but I feel great!

I weighed this morning and will weigh again in 4 weeks on January 15th.  Remember my goal is to loose 5 lbs!
If I just loose 5 a month in one year I will have lost 60lbs.  That is my goal weight loss number.  I think I can do it!

I am going to take full length pictures weekly just so I can see my progress.  It may take a while to see a difference but it will keep me accountable!

Who knows maybe one day I will look like her........or her...............They are both in their is in her late forties!  WOW!!!!!

So on Saturday I will do a class they have there and then train one on one again Monday, Wednesday and Friday!

Dec 16, 2014

Starting today......

I am officially signed up with a trainer to transform this body.....both physically and mentally!  About a year and a half ago I did P90X and was really disciplined doing it just not good at the eating part so my results weren't just amazing like you see for some people.  Fast forward to now and not only have I gained back what I lost then I have added some pounds.

No excuses.....just me not taking care of me and eating everything I shouldn't eat!  I love our new house and don't regret our move one bit but I do think I have had a huge pity party the last 6 months.  I mean we moved and my friends went on with their lives......without me!!!  Can you believe it????  The nerve!  (joke....only kidding.....)

So, in saying that, it's time for ME!  I love to work out and love the feeling you get when your done so it is going to start playing a huge role in my life!  My goal this month is to loose 5 lbs and if I loose more that is great as long as I at least loose the 5.  I have set some personal goals long term that one day I may share.  Out of fear of failure I will keep quiet for now!  :)

I kind of feel dumb because I seem to have a post like this every so many months and I always revert back to my old ways, even researching weight loss surgery which I just can't seem to get a peace about so I listened to what God was telling me and I am going to do it the hard way.  So today after actually meeting with a trainer and working out with him I am committed to getting the body I want and feeling better and being healthy!!!!  I will work out with him 3 times a week for the first month then I am going to workout with him FIVE days a week!

I am so excited!

I took my before pictures today and the clothed ones didn't make me want to puke as bad as the one where I pulled my shirt up some to show my stomach area.  MY WORST PROBLEM!

I may post it after I loose ten pounds!  Until then here are the clothed ones..........

Honestly I look smaller in the picture then I really am.  

I had on compression pants....really I am a little bigger than I look.

Each Tuesday I will post a new picture to keep me accountable!  My goal is to loose 60 lbs. in a year!  I think I can do it!!!

Nov 20, 2014

Seven Years Ago......

Seven years ago on a Thursday night like tonight I was packing my stuff about to head the next day to a marriage conference with my husband, who at the time, felt a million miles away from me and our boys.  (We only had Noah, Taylor and Jesse then.)

Just the Sunday before I was told he wanted a divorce.  I was devastated.  Scared.  Physically sick but determined that God would restore my marriage.  I wasn't sure how or when but I knew in His eyes I was Marc's wife and always would be.
My mother in law reminded me each day to pray for my marriage but to also start thanking God for what He is going to do through us.  Praise Him now she would say.  That was tough but I did it.  I prayed for my husband like never before!

We had already been on the waiting list to get into this conference called Weekend To Remember and Monday of that week they called me and said an opening had come up so I bought the tickets knowing that there was a 99% chance that he would not go with me.

To make a really long story short my mother in law told my hubby that she would never ask him for anything else if he just went with me to this retreat.  He didn't want to but he agreed.  She told him if he still felt like he wanted a divorce she wouldn't like it or condone it but she would accept it.

So Friday rolled around and we went.  We drove to Austin pretty much in silence.  I cried a LOT.  It was a weird 4 hours.
We attended the Friday night session and I can't even explain how God spoke to both of us.  The rest of the weekend was amazing!  By Sunday when we left we we were well on our way to reconciliation and over the last 7 years God has restored and used our marriage to glorify him!

We have had the opportunity to help a few other couples that were struggling with the things we did and we have been able to share what we learned.  

We have grown into a more mature marriage then we had at 19 and 21....the day we said I Do.  We have beaten all odds and statistics say we should have been divorced a long time ago.

I am proud of what we have today.  I know that God gave us Emily as a gift for the hard work and choices we made seven years ago.  She is our miracle baby!  I think about how God changed Marc and gave his a heart for missions and how that led us to Vensly and our COMPLETED family!!!

I write all of this to say that tonight I am packing for that same conference but this time as a happily married wife that is excited to learn new things and to spend time investing in more into my marriage so that we can continue to be stronger and continue to give Him all the glory!   I am so excited that my brother and his wife are coming with us.  They have only been married about 7 years so I am praying that they can take a lot away from this retreat so they only continue to grow together!

God is good.  All the time.  And he's in the business of saving marriages.  We are proof.

Nov 18, 2014

God's Will and mine............

I have to laugh at myself sometimes as I have my kid's lives all planned out in my head.  I mean it's a good life for them and everything will be perfect! one of mine gets older and is growing into a man I am learning that my will and God's will for him just may not be the same and that is a hard one to accept sometimes.  Of course we all know that His will is ALWAYS so much better but we aren't always good at waiting......and the growing part......well that is the hardest!

As a mom I am so guilty of not wanting my kids to suffer or be uncomfortable or have any kind of trials and tribulations but again I know that is what grows us!  That is when our faith in Him grows too!

I pray for all of my children but since Taylor graduated in May and is now off at college starting his "adult" life I seem to focus more on him and the details of his life.  Of course if it were up to me he would get his degree from TAMU and maybe be something like a Veterinary or an Engineer, would make life long college friends and would meet the most precious little Christian girl that is pure and innocent and loves God.  She would adore my son and together they would build a life and one day a family!  Of course they would move out here to the country with us and we would see them all the time and we would be one big happy family!  :)  We always called him our little preacher when he was little.  NOW THAT would make me happy!!!!

I know he is mine and all moms say this about their children but seriously Taylor is the smartest boy I know.  He gives his dad a run for him money!  He can explain just about anything to you and knows the Bible very well!  A computer is an easy fix for him and he is interested in things that most could care less about.  I think he's amazing, smart and hilarious!
He's shy at times and he doesn't always let everyone see the side of him that we do but I know that God is working on him and one day everyone will see what I do.

So we have established that I have his life all mapped out for him so what do you do when your child calls you one day and says that college isn't for him?  What do you do when he wants a different path than the one that I think he needs or the one that we thought he was on?  Well, if you are me your freak out at first!!!!!  If you are his dad you stay calm and ask gently "well son what is it you want to do?"  That led to many talks, praying about the situation and listening to Taylor's thoughts and wants and a decision was made.
Our boy will be coming home after this semester.   Let me say to those wondering.....this has nothing to do with grades or not being able to handle the classes.  He is a smart boy and academics have nothing to do with it!  It has everything to do with that this is not God's will for him right now.  College Station is not for him.  He's not exactly sure what is for him right now but with God's help and direction we are going to try to figure that out.

I have been given two scriptures while praying for him in the last week........

The first one is......Proverbs 3:6

Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. 

This morning it was this one........John 14:27

 I give you peace, the kind of peace that only I can give. It isn’t like the peace that this world can give. So don’t be worried or afraid.

I love the second one because when you are 18 and supposed to just know what you want and in the college world you are forced to make a decision NOW you can worry and be afraid.  We are choosing to slow down, pray and wait for His will to be done.  Not ours.

Until then my family will be back under one roof and that makes this momma very happy!  

Nov 17, 2014

A Different Anniversary Celebration.............

Marc and I celebrated 20 years of marriage in August and for as long as I can remember we have always talked about taking "the trip of a lifetime" for our 20 year anniversary.  Well that month came and went and we never did go and honestly neither of us felt led to go anywhere!  We ended up just spending the night about an hour from our house and went to dinner.  We sattand talked for a while about what all we have accomplished in 20 years and how our lives and wants have changed so much over the years.  One thing has remained the same......we love each other and we love to give, serve and do for others.   I wish I would have came across this video back in August or we might just would have taken a different "trip of a lifetime".

The older we get and the longer we live in the country the more we are certain that God does not intend for us to spend our money on things like fancy trips, fancy houses and other pointless things that we don't need.  Do we have a nice house?  Yes we do but it's has lots of character but it is a work in progress!  And it's in the middle of no where!  We have truly simplified our lives.  Our goal is to one day almost totally live off of our land.  Food wise!  We also want to share our veggies, fruits and other food we raise here with the people of our small community!  That is our wish!

An average trip to Fiji (and I only name that because it is talked about in the video as a choice.....we have never been) costs about $10,000 for a week.  I know someone that spent $20K on a trip to Tahiti.  Do you know what that kind of money can do?  Did you know that you can adopt a child from Haiti for $10K?  How many mouths can that feed?  A LOT!  I can list about a hundred or more things that you can do with that kind of money but you get the point!

What better way to spend your anniversary then serving people that have nothing?  What better way to show people that marriage is still alive and can last for 20 years and even longer?  What a way to give people hope!  It made me think of the women they showed and he talked about in the video.
I would rather come home with the thought that I influenced a young lady to know that marriage can be a God given gift and love is real rather than a bunch of pictures and bragging rights for Facebook any day!

I think I will start planning that 21st anniversary trip of a lifetime now but it sure will look different than we dreamed about 20 years ago!

Nov 4, 2014

My Gift......

My husband has always been a really good gift giver as far as material things.  I can usually just mention something I want (within reason of course) and more than likely he soon shows up with it.  He's always been good that way and while I love him for that GIFTS is just not my love language.  Or at least not my first language.  Every girl loves getting gifts.

I have always thought mine was quality time and it still is but I also LOVE words of affirmation!  I didn't really realize how much I love sweet words from him until I haven't heard them in a while.  I mean he tells me he loves me all the time but the days of him telling me something bigger than that or different than that are few so when he does I am giddy the rest of the week or longer!  :)

SO.....this morning he left for work and I took the kids to school and about an hour after getting home I thought I should check my phone just in case someone was trying to get me and here is what I find in a text from my hubby........

Here is the song........

I hope I am always his angel!!!!!  I am a blessed girl!!!

Oct 26, 2014

I Now Pronounce you an ADD couple........

That was the name of an article I read today and it really got my mind to thinking!  That was me and my hubby 20 years ago at the young age of 19 and 21 and I didn't even know it then!  Really he didn't either.  Of course we were young, dumb, and in love!

MY marriage was going to be a fairytale and MY husband was going to do everything right and make all my dreams come true!  He was only going to concentrate of me and making me happy!  ME ME ME!!!!

So we come home from the honeymoon and probably that day ADD reared it's ugly head!   How in the world could he forget my birthday the first year of being married and leave me waiting at the restaurant for him for an hour only to never show because he got caught up fishing and forgot?  How could he not remember where his keys are every single day?  How can he look right at me and not hear me?  How could he have sent me a picture of his speedometer going 100 on a motorcycle? How could he be talking to our company one minute and sweeping the roof the next?
How was it that we were newlyweds but sometimes I felt alone in our house?
But how is it that he can remember every license plate number his parents ever had?  Weird.  He graduated number one in his police academy class!  He grew a small company to a multi million dollar company in a matter of years!  He forgot to get me a mother's day card???  What?  How are you going to remodel the bedroom when you haven't finished the garage?  The list goes on and on......the good and the frustrating!

Little did I know that God was teaching me how to live with my new husband that clearly has ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER!    I didn't know that at the time and to be honest it took me about 13 years to learn and not take everything so personal!
It took me a long time to learn how to live with him, how to get his attention without getting angry and many other things.  Anyone that knows our story knows that we were right on the brink of divorce at one time.  Looking back his ADD had a big role in those issues.  On his part and mine!  I am so thankful that God intervened and we won that fight!

They say most ADD sufferers are brilliant, creative, entrepreneurs, artists, musicians, writers, etc........

That is so true!  My husband is for sure brilliant, he has an entrepreneur spirit and had his own business by the time we were married 5 years, he can play drums and guitar by ear, can sing like a country music star, and is a risk taker that usually always pays off!  We took a risk by moving here and it was the best decision we have ever made for us and our future!

It's funny how over time my anger and resentment turned to compassion and understanding!  (Sometimes I fail at that....)  It took lots of prayer....still does!  Lots of patience....still isn't always easy and I still get upset at times but I try to understand he can't help it!

I wouldn't change him for anything!  ADD is only a small part of who he is.  He believes in everything I want to do.  He is my biggest fan when I want to do something!  He loves God with all he is and is a great leader in our home!  He has great intentions all the time.

Marc has chosen to not take medication and deal with it on his own.  That hasn't always been easy but we have learned.  He has learned things he needs to do and not do.

ADD is hereditary and so here I am with a complete clone of my son!  I pray that God is preparing his wife in that department too!  I feel for her but I know that God knows who she is and she to will learn!  She will have a good teacher....Me!

This was the article that got me to thinking about all of this.

Oct 14, 2014

How Our Lives Have Changed..........

Wow!  First let me say that God's plan is always so much better then our plans we make for ourselves!  If you would have told me 5-10 years ago that I would live on a farm way down in South Texas (or farm in the making right now!) I would have cracked up laughing!  Even though we have always said that we would love to live on land and anyone that knows me knows that I LOVE farmhouses!

I find myself everyday loving this life more and more.  It's a very simple life! (Not at all saying I have a perfect life.....just one that God seemed to slow down and simplify!)  There are no stores in my town....only the school, the post office, the Sheriff's office, the courthouse and a few other things.  It's all in a little tiny square!  It's very quiet and the people here are very nice!  Our town is surrounded by ranches.

I was thinking of little things that I used to never let go like pedicures, my eyebrows and my nails!!!  I haven't had a pedicure in a while.  I bought the stuff that they use and I do it myself in the shower most nights.  My eyebrows are getting a little unruly!  :)  My nails just get messed up from working outside and around this house!

We have always wanted a garden and now we have one!  It's huge!!!!  It is still in the very beginning stages but the rows are growing slowly but surely.  Marc and Mr. Jim prayed over it after finally getting it all like it is supposed to be!
The other day I smiled after Jesse said he had garden chores he needed to get done!  I don't know why that made me happy but it did!  He worked hard to help his dad pull weeds and plant new things!
My prayer is that our garden over flows with veggies that we can share with our little community!

The schools!  My little ones go to a VERY small public school.  I can't even put into words how I feel about that school and the teachers/principle that God brought into my kid's lives!  As Jesse's science teacher said "I don't know how you guys found Sarita but I am sure glad you did!"  I thought that was so sweet and I totally agree with her!

Noah goes to school about 20 minutes from here and he loves it.  He has just fit right in and made so many friends!  I am in awe of what God did for our kids.
Even Taylor has said he misses Sarita!
Noah has a bus that picks him up about five minutes up the road and Marc takes him to his stop on his way to work.  The littles go at 7:30 and we literally live 1 minute from the school.  They CHOSE to go to an after school program that they LOVE so sometimes I don't get them until 5:30!  They aren't real happy if I show up early!

COOKING!  I literally cook every night.  Even the weekends.  We had Burger King yesterday for lunch because the kids got out early but they have not had fast food in a long time!  People this is big for me!  I am proud of myself too!

We are all home and around the dinner table eating dinner by 6:30 at the latest each night!  Only thing missing is Taylor!

Date night-  This has really changed!  We don't have a babysitter so we have slowly allowed Noah to babysit for us so we never go further than 10-15 minutes from the house.  We go to an old restaurant called Kings Inn that is famous with South Texas hunters and fisherman!  We go look at Baffin Bay and have even planned our next date night which we will go fishing!  :)  No more fancy restaurants or unlimited choices.  I love it!  As long as we are together it doesn't matter where or what we do!

We went back home to Baytown this past weekend and while I loved seeing everyone and I miss my friends we couldn't wait to get HOME!  I don't miss that traffic.....I was a nervous wreck on 59!  I love our country roads and no traffic!

We got our tractor yesterday and so this weekend will begin the clean up of the acreage so that we can finally get chickens and eventually horses for the kids!  We are looking now for somewhere for them to start taking riding lessons.  Jesse says he wants to be a bull rider!  OMG!  He said he would settle for bull dogging though!  :)

I love this new life God decided to give us and wouldn't change a thing!  We are blessed!

Sep 18, 2014

Some of my favorite moments.......

There are some things I wanted to write down so I can look back one day and remember how I felt at this time.........

1.  When my baby is girl is all bathed, hair washed and lathered up in Baby Magic and she sleeps between me and her daddy!  I love to cuddle up to her,  kiss on her cheeks and pray over her!  I secretly wish she would stay this age forever!

2.  When Vensly asks me a question and immediately follows it with "huh?  tell me???"  I don't know why that makes me laugh.  I also don't want to forget his Haitian accent that he still has.  Some things that he says in that accent make me laugh so hard!  He's has such a dry sense of humor!  He is obsessed with Lloyd from Legos and the way he said "Lloyd" can't help but make you smile.  I don't want to forget how he tells me he loves me about 20 times a day!

3.  Taylor-  because he is off at college I suddenly realized how much I miss the sound of his voice and how he always starts off our conversation with "hey momma".   Sometimes I lay in bed at night and can here him say that to me!  I hope he always calls me momma!  I love to hear how he misses his little guest house here in Sarita and how Sarita Farms is his HOME!  It goes to show you that home is where your family is not just a structure!

4.  Jesse-  I love how he's ALL BOY!  He loves trucks, trailers, transformers, ninjas, four wheelers, the bad boy mower, dirt and all things boy!  I love how outgoing he is at his new school!  Sometimes a little to much so.  I love how he loves me!  He is a momma's boy and he thinks I am the most beautiful girl and tells me all the time.  He will also say my butt is a little big as he pops me on my booty!!!!  LOL

5.  Noah- He is HILARIOUS!  He can make his dad and I laugh so hard.  His latest is his Obama impersonation.  I am telling you.....he's good!!!!!!  I love how sensitive he is and how kind his heart is.  He's my helper!  I love how he loves the Lord at such a young age and isn't afraid to show it or say it.  I pray that never changes!!!

6.  When I drive into my new driveway and see the trees and the dirt road and my sweet dogs!  I thank God for sending us here.  If someone can't sit on my front porch and hear the birds, watch the deer, and see all the beautiful trees and not believe in God, then I am not sure what could convince them!  I never want to forget the excitement of being home!

7.  Mine and hubby's talks on the front porch early in the morning or late at night!  Nothing better!

8.  When we dream of what Sarita Farms will be one day!  It could be amazing!

9.  Family dinners around our little bitty table when we have a big table that we would all fit but we cram around it and have the best talks!

10.  Knowing Taylor is home safe and sound even if it's for a couple of days!

Sep 16, 2014

My Wish List........

Here are some things I have been wanting lately but thinking I may should wait until Christmas....or longer for a few!  A girl can dream though huh?

1. Puffin Classics Children's Books   (These are going to be a Christmas present for Emily!)

2.  4-Piece Metal Chairs in Antique Sky Blue

3.  White Slip Covered Winged Back Chairs for the Living Room

4.  A new chandelier for over my dining room table!

6.  Stainless Steel Pots and Pans.......I need new pots and pans so bad but why is it always so hard to buy something like that when there are so many other pretty things I want for the house!  :)

Sep 11, 2014

My Biggest Weekly Menu Ever!

Living in the country and a town where there is not a grocery store you have to be prepared.....I have learned this the hard way the last couple of months!
I have cooked a lot.......more than I am used to but I actually kind of like it and I know my kids and hubby do too!
Tomorrow is grocery store day for me so I made my menu all the way through next weekend!  Did I mention my boy is coming to see me!!!  My college boy and he loves Cheese enchiladas so that is on the menu for then!  I can't wait!

So, here is my menu.  Most were taken from pinterest so if you are interested in the recipe just search there!

Thursday- Meat Loaf, mashed potatoes, and green beans!

Friday- Sour Cream Noodle Bake, salad and garlic bread  (Pioneer Woman)

Saturday- Homemade Pizza night!

Sunday- Crock Pot Roast and potatoes, carrots and green beans!  ROLLS!

Monday- Creamy Crouton Chicken, broccoli and mixed veggies!

Tuesday- Slow cooker burrito bowls with all the fixin's.

Wednesday- Crock Pot Pork Chops, rice, something green and rolls.

Thursday- Baked Chicken with potatoes, carrots and green beans.

Friday- Cheese Enchiladas, Sour Cream Spanish rice, black beans and salad.

Saturday- Homemade pizza night again!!!

Sunday-  Taking my boy out to eat after church before he leaves to go back to College Station!

Sep 4, 2014

You've got to move it move it........

Tuesday of this week I worked out for the first time since about December!  Talk about sore!!!!  I couldn't do anything yesterday because I could barely move but today I worked out again.  SO....that is twice this week and I will work out in the morning to.  Right now I am doing Fitness on Demand on our smart tv and basically doing 20 minute workouts that combine strength training with cardio.  Doesn't sound like very long but I am exhausted at the end but feel so good after I am done, showered and ready for the day!

I have been watching what I eat very closely this week and will start my meal plan next week.  I hope!  I can honestly say I am not good at prepping and following a plan.  I wish I was but I am not.  I have just cut out all snacks this week.  Just eating breakfast, lunch and a small supper!   Probably not what a nutritionist would say to do but I am starting by making small changes right now.

I saw a picture of myself tonight on my hubby's phone and I almost threw up!  It will for sure be my before picture.  I feel like this is it.......for my health and for myself I need to do this!
I am joining the gym here tomorrow and starting zumba on Monday morning.  I figure no one knows me here so my bad dancing can't get around the rumor mill.  LOL!

I am not going to put a picture up just yet of myself because frankly I am embarrassed by it but I will keep this site updated and will add before and afters when I reach my first goal of 10 lbs and some inches lost!

Ugh....why does it have to be so hard?  So easy to put it on but so incredibly difficult to take it off.

So here's to a new, healthier, and much skinnier me!!!!!!

Here is a little Throw Back Thursday to a time I thought I was fat!!!  WHAT??????
My inspiration picture.....I still have those jeans so maybe I should hang them in site to soon get back in them!

Sep 3, 2014

Courting or Dating?

My son Noah and I LOVE 19 kids and Counting!  I know a lot of people think they are crazy and maybe to the world they are BUT they definitely have some good kids.  I am thinking that if they weren't as "perfect" as they look then someone, somewhere would have already come out with a story or scandal but I can't seem to find one anywhere!  So, while I know they are not perfect I am going to believe that they definitely are doing something right.  
Lately, I have been so intrigued by their two older girls that are in a "courtship" with one now being married!  

As I write more keep that sweet face above in the picture in your mind!  My sweet Emily Grace!

I have started reading a lot on Courting and what it exactly means and the difference between that and dating.  I have read a lot about what the Duggar girls have to say on it and I totally agree with so much of what they say!  In our world today everything is "dirtied" or "sexed" up......I think those are real words!  But it's true!  I don't even let my kids watch music shows like the VMA's or Grammy's!  It's horrible what they are singing about and what you see on the screen.

Here are seven of the Duggar girl's rules to courtship....... Read the explanations of these rules here! CLICK HERE

Rule 1: Courting is not dating; it’s “dating with a purpose.” 

Rule 2: Three (or four, or 15) is NOT a crowd: There’s always a chaperone.

Rule 3: Brothers know best.  (This one makes me think of Emily on a date with her FOUR that is 13 years older, two that are Asian and one that could be a very intimidating black man one day!  LOL)

Rule 4: Texting? Ur parents r watching. 4 real.

Rule 5: No kissing or hand-holding.  (Until they are engaged then they can hold hands!)

Rule 6: To court a Duggar girl, you have to go through Dad.  (Poor boy that has to go through Marc!)

Rule 7: You can’t fail at courtship.

There are so many of the above rules that I agree with and think are great and who wouldn't want that for their children....especially our girls!  Don't they deserve that respect and purity?  I think they do!  I want my boys to be that man of God that respects girls and loves their spouse like Christ loves the church!  I want my daughter to marry a man who loves her that way.  I simply want the best for them!

Of course with this comes lots of question of HOW?  I have tons of questions like that.  Like what about if they go off to college in another town where you aren't there?  Are their many boys/men out there that are willing to "court"?  Any girls out there?  Is it sheltering them to much?  
And the list of questions go on.........

I am each morning praying for my boys and my sweet girl and asking God to prepare their mate now.....grow them into Godly women and Godly men.  So whether He chooses for them to date or to court I do not know but I do know that He has a plan for each other them!

We can set rules and instill morals and values but the rest is up to them and God!  

Good stuff to think about though for sure..........

Aug 27, 2014

Prayers for my Elementary kids.......

Dear Lord,

Thank you Lord for a great first week at their new school.  Wow, you have covered it all for my kids and their schools.  Both big and little ones!

I come to you Lord to ask you to protect them each day, keep them safe and keep them healthy!

I pray that they continue to love their teachers and the teachers love them.

I pray that Vensly not be nervous, that he not fear the environment, but that he thrive and learn all he is capable of!  I pray that you will help him find his voice so that he can communicate what he needs too!

I pray that Emily will learn so many new things and improve on the things she has already learned!

I pray for Jesse.  I pray that he not get frustrated and that he is eager to learn.  I ask you to give him confidence and understanding.  I pray he grasps all that he is taught.

I pray that you guard and protect all of their hearts and mind Lord.

I pray that they all learn to turn to you in time of need.  I pray that they know that You are all knowing and you give generously!

I ask you Lord that my children grow in favor with you.  I ask that they find favor with their teachers and their teachers with them.

I ask for your hand of protection over them and the whole school.  I pray for all the teachers there Lord.

Lastly I ask the same thing as another mother who's blog I read......

Father, I ask You for godly, loyal friends for my children. Friends who love purity, who are pure in heart, and gracious in speech, friends that will sharpen them and love them at all times. 

I ask you all of these things I your holy name!  Amen!!!!

Aug 26, 2014

Prayers for my Junior High kid........

Dear Lord, 

I come to you today to ask for your hand of protection over my Noah!  I ask that you keep him safe each day at school and that you keep him healthy!

I thank you for him Lord......I praise you and rejoice in you that you chose me to be his mom!  I thank you for the miracle of adoption.  

I ask you Lord to give him knowledge and wisdom this school year.  I pray that he find favor with his teachers and them with him.  I ask you to send him good friends......Godly friends.  I ask you Lord to give him confidence.  

I pray that he is the best football manager there is.  I pray that he work hard for the team and that he learn the importance of team work and never quitting.  

I ask you to ease his sadness of his big brother being off at college.  I pray that their relationship only grow and that distance makes their hearts for each other grow stronger!

I pray he always stops and prays before any big decision.  I pray that he has conviction if he makes a wrong decision.  I pray that his walk with you only grows!

I ask you to give him strength to be a junior high kid and the pressures that come along with that!  I ask you to guard his mind against what is not good.  I ask you to shield him from things he doesn't need to know and prepare him for the things he does need to learn or know!

Keep him innocent and from what is not of you but of this world.  

I thank you Lord for what you have done through him already.  I thank you for the good days he's had at school and for the wonderful teachers that he was given and I ask you to continue to bless this school year!  

In your holy name, Amen!

My Noah and as he says "THE sweetest, cutest baby in the world!"

Aug 25, 2014

Prayer for my College Student

Dear Lord,

I come to you today and ask you to watch over my son.  Keep him safe and keep him healthy!   I ask you to give him peace over this school year in this new town and in a grown up setting that is college.  

I ask you Lord to ease any anxiety that he may have!  Give him confidence and strength!

Lord I ask you to show up in a mighty way in College Station for him.  I ask you to send Godly friends and at least one new person that will impact his life in a huge way that is only from You!  

I ask you Lord to help him stand strong in his decisions and that you give him the strength to stand strong to say NO if it's something he knows he shouldn't do.  Remove him from situations that aren't right for him.  

Give him conviction.  

I pray Lord that if he fails at something (not grades!) that he get right back up and try again!  Give him confidence to know that he can do anything he sets him mind to!  

Give him Godly professors!  

Lord, let him have fun!  Help him to make the best memories of his life all while making smart, wise decisions!  

Lord whisper to him each morning and every night that you are there for him!  I pray that he seeks you in every decision he makes.  

I pray that others look past his shyness and quietness to see the great guy that he is.  I pray that new friends see him the way you do Lord!  You made him and you don't make mistakes.  Let others see that in him!  

Lastly Lord, I pray for the cleaning lady that cleans his room......Help her Lord!  She is gonna need it!!!!  

Thank you Lord for giving me 18 years day in and day out with my boy!  I give him back to you Lord.....his life, his career, his future spouse is all in Your hands!  

In your precious Holy name!  Amen!

I caught him saying his prayers on day and snapped the picture!  Still a favorite of mine to this day!

Aug 24, 2014

Setting him Free.......

See this medium sized little guy with the beautiful blonde hair?  Well he left for college this weekend and that little guy next to him helped move him in and then cried on the way home that his brother was not coming home with us this time!  I am thankful today for the relationship these two have.  It is the product of many prayers and tears at times.  I am so thankful that these two boys are now not only brothers but friends and even confidants!  (they tell me they have a pact that mom doesn't need to know everything!!! )

Move in day!!!!  

It seems like just yesterday I was racking up leaves so this precious guy could jump in them and "kick eaves" as he would always say!  I remember that raspy voice like it was yesterday and I can still remember how wild and hyper he was but also what a sweet boy he was at that age!  My heart aches to know that he is grown but I am also so excited for him to be "set free".  I long to see the day that God's will for him is unveiled!  I pray for him every day.....sometimes three and four times a day!  I pray that he find his niche in life and I know that he will be successful at whatever he chooses to do!  

Oh if he only knew the great things I want for his life.  Oh if I only knew the plans that God has for him.  And oh, how wonderful it will be so see it all unravel before our eyes!  

Well Son.......I have cried, and I will continue to for a while when I see your empty bed or don't have to wash your clothes but I know that this is the beginning of a new life for us both.  One where you are going to spread your wings and fly!!!!!   You are the smartest young man I know and you amaze me with all you know so go our there and amaze the world and do great things!

I love you my sweet angel boy!  Don't ever forget that!  

Aug 18, 2014

Twenty Years!

20 years ago this week I was just coming home from my honeymoon with my new husband!  Wow.....sometimes it doesn't seem that long ago and sometimes it seems like a really long time! We have been married longer than we lived at home with our parents!  One thing I know for sure is there is not one thing I would change about our journey to get here today!

God has blessed us more than we deserve for sure!

Our first miracle was Taylor......took us about a year to get pregnant with him and he came at the perfect time!  His birthday has meaning to our family that we know is a sign from God!

Our second precious gift was Noah.....he was matched with us on our anniversary 12 years ago!

The our "grand finale" as we called him.....Jesse!  It was such a miracle the way they found us and how his birthmother (and Noah's) wanted them to be raised together.  His birthday was a sign from God too!

Well we only thought Jesse was our grand finale......

After being married for 15 years and being told that we had a 2% chance of ever having a baby on our own....SURPRISE.......Emily Grace was born!!!  Her birthday was not a coincidence either and turned a normally sad week for Marc's parents into a time of celebrating new life and something great!
Her daddy knew we were having a girl from very early on.  He said from day one that she would have brown hair and blue eyes and that we should name her Emily Grace!  Emily is after my momma!  I could not have picked a better name myself!

And finally a chance meeting between Marc and a tiny little baby boy in Haiti....God led us to our sweet Vensly!  The perfect "grand finale" to our family and guess what?  His birthday has meaning too!

It's no secret that Marc and I have had our hard times and that we almost didn't make it to this anniversary but after lots of hard work, changing on both of our ends, and putting God first we made it.  Stronger and more in love than ever before!
Do we still have our struggles?  Yes, but we have to tools to work it out!

If you would have asked me on my wedding day where we would be in 20 years I sure would not have said a farm way out in the middle of no where with kids of all different races but boy am I glad that we make plans and God laughs because this is perfect!  We are blessed.

Thank you Lord for sending me my hubby at the ripe ol' age of 19 and for equipping me to work at this thing called marriage and most of all thank you for my family!  It's sure not how I pictured it but boy am I in love with each of them!!!!!

Here's to another 20..........

Aug 17, 2014

Weekly Menu......

Since moving out to the country I pretty much have to cook most nights because the Taqueria every other night is not a good thing!
I can't say we always have a big elaborate meal.....tonight the kids has Mac and Cheese, PBJ or cereal!  We had a big lunch after church so we weren't hungry until about 8. is my menu for this week!

Monday- Sloppy Joes, sweet potato fries, and Taylor wants fried okra!

Tuesday-  Cheese Enchiladas, black beans and salad.

Wednesday- Husband's Delight Casserole, Green Beans and Rolls.  (my hubby and kids LOVE this casserole!)

Thursday- Crockpot Chicken Terriyaki, fried rice and egg rolls.

Friday- Eating out as we will be headed to my mom's then on to College Station the next day to move Taylor in to his dorm!!!!

I can't wait for my garden to start growing and one day be able to prepare meals straight from there!!!!

Aug 8, 2014

Emily Grace is FIVE!!!

I never knew that having a girl could be this fun and it only gets better!  She is my side shopping buddy,  my double date with Daddy, pedicure partner, my movie watcher and my baby girl!
This girl is one of a kind.....she can be so girly one minute and likes her dresses and nails painted and the next she is strapping on those boots, getting her dogs and heading out to find bugs or frogs!  She is not scared of anything.

She is obsessed with ELSA...the ice queen as she calls her!!!
She loves every song on Frozen.
She loves dolls.
She loves barbies.
She loves her dogs.
She loves bugs.
She loves horses.
She loves her brothers.
She loves bossing them around......even Taylor who is 18.
She is CRAZY about her Daddy.
She loves sleeping in between us!
She loves me!
We love her so much!

This family would have never been complete without this surprise that came wrapped in pink and threw sparkle and sassiness into our lives!

God blessed us big with our baby girl!

She is on her second celebration tonight.  Last night it was just her, daddy and I that went shopping and out to eat.  Tonight she wants Chinese since its her brother's favorites!

After picking out two toys at Target for her birthday she also got her fifth birthday charm for her charm bracelet!
This year she got the schoolhouse since she is starting Kindergarten!!!
She loves going and picking up her charm that we get her.  Sometimes she even talks Daddy into another one!  I love that tradition and can't wait to fill it up over the years!

Aug 6, 2014

Sarita Farms.......

I am working on a new blog that will be all about my house and the progress we make as we turn this old house into a show place!  It may take years but the end will be beautiful!!!!

Until then go "like" my Facebook page for the new blog.  I will add pictures as I go and on the blog I will go into detail about how we did things, where we got things, etc.......

I am the queen of craigslist, goodwill and garage sales!  I try to NEVER buy anything new at a store as far as furniture.  I love Annie Sloan paint and have even discovered a new paint that a small shop here in Kingsville sales that is similar but you use regular paint to make it the color you want.

So if you are interested in keeping up with our progress and eventually read the story of how Sarita Farms came to be go like my page by clicking here----------->SARITA FARMS!

The blog will be up and running soon so stay tuned to the Facebook page for it to officially be published!

Aug 4, 2014

Huge Eye Opener........My honest TRUTH!

Here I sit another Monday starting yet again another journey to get healthy and to loose weight!  Ugh!  Why is it SO HARD?  (This is only my fortythousandthhundreth time!!!!!!!!)

I haven't weighed in so long....actually since the day I finished P90X, which was back in after joining Fitness Haus to help me get healthy and loose weight I weighed this morning and I have gained twenty pounds!  TWENTY POUNDS!!!!!!!  I literally felt like I was going to pass out.....I got flushed, my heart was racing and I literally felt sick to my stomach.  How does that happen and how does it happen so fast?
I could kick myself for doing 90 days of P90X and working my hiney off only to finish and let myself go again!  I am so mad at myself!

I knew deep down I was gaining but I chose to ignore it.  I know when I have a hard time crossing my legs.  Yes, something that simple as sitting in a chair and being uncomfortable crossing my legs. My thighs don't just rub together when I walk they are just together!  LOL  Lately when I lay down flat on my back at night I feel like I am choking.  That is extra weight around my neck!!  I hurt every morning when I get up out of the bed.  My feet ache, my legs and my back.  That is from my weight.
I probably really don't want to know what blood work would say about me right now!  My cholesterol is probably through the roof!  I put off my well women check ups because I know what my doctor will say and I have not wanted to hear it.  Truth hurts!  (I know that is not smart so don't worry I do go I just don't like to!)

My husband- I think he is the most handsome man on this earth!  PERIOD!!! I also know that other women probably do too. Yes I he loves me for me and I know that but I am also not naive to think that men aren't visual.  That is a proven fact!  He deserves to have a wife that takes care of herself and wants to look good for him.  He's so lucky because he never has to worry about weight.  He's naturally thin!  I pray my kids are like him!
I want to feel confident and not let my weight come between us and our relationship.  I wish I was one of those women that is confident no matter what but I am not.  Never have been and probably never will be!

My kids!!!  I am responsible for these 5 kids that God so graciously gave me and I have failed them in the food department.  I have slowly tried to change that with them but I still neglect myself.  I buy anything and everything organic but I am still guilty of buying junk.  Sweets are my weakness! Chips are my kids weakness and I still buy them!  Not anymore.  I make my kids eat fruit, veggies, yogurt, nuts and all things good (along with their chips and my cookies) but I don't follow my own rules!

Anyway, I am not sure why I am putting this out there but those are my thoughts and I am hoping and praying today was THE MONDAY that I change these things!  I want to wear a bathing suit and swim with my kids.  We live by the beach now!!!!  We should be spending lots of time there!  They love it!  I want to walk in a store and wear whatever jeans I want too!!!!!  I want to wear a dress and not feel my thighs rub together!  I want to feel beautiful!  I want to be the healthiest mother and wife I can be!

Jun 30, 2014

Country Living is......(what I didn't know!)

1.  Fleas, ticks, snakes and any other bug known to mankind!

2.  Having an owl live in your shop!  

3.  Hubby thinking he was being eaten when a screeching owl screamed while he was at the well pump one night!

4.  Having a horse come right up your driveway!

5.  Having a skunk walk right passed you and through your yard like it's no big deal!

6.  Having a home phone!  I mean like one you plug into a phone jack and not a cordless!  (I guess I need an answering machine next!)

7.  Having FOUR dogs.....yes, Marc told the kids they could each get a dog when we moved!  Luckily, Noah really isn't a dog lover so FOUR it is!

8.  Dirty kids every evening from playing long and hard outside all day!

9.  Evening talks on the porch or early morning coffee on the porch!

10.  Finding a foot of a bird in your washer after washing towels your puppy got sick on!

11.  Having the lady at the post office know you by name an be the sweetest lady ever!

12.  Watching little lizards run all through the yard.  They are fast and big!!!!

13.  No window treatments needed!

14.  Having a bat fly on your porch late at night while sitting outside!  Talk about a heart attack!

15.  My driveway seems a mile long!

16.  Beautiful wild flowers and bougainvilleas!

17.  The wind is always blowing.

18.  STARS at night are big and bright!!!!!!!

19.  Just seeing God's beautiful creation each morning I wake up!

20.  Having all my chicks under one roof in a house and town that I know God called us too!

I wouldn't trade this country living for anything in the world!!!!!

Jun 26, 2014


Since our move I have thought a lot about friendships and what they mean to me!  I have thought about what kind of friend I am......the good and the bad.  Sadly, I am both.   After our party this weekend I realized that.
I have sat alone in this house and analyzed a lot of my friendships and came to this realization of a few.......

I (we) have friends (two couples) that no matter how much time goes by we will always be friends, we will pick up right where we left off and they feel more like family then they do friends.  That will never change.  They are not friends of a season they were sent to us through God!  They are blessings for sure!

I have friends that I don't talk to on a daily basis but are always there when I need them and just help out when needed without even asking.  They love me for me and know what I need when I need it. I fail at that part.....I sometimes feel like I have my plate full with my kids that I don't think of the needs (the bringing meals, picking up their kids, etc.....) of my friends.  I have a very dear friend that was the first one to teach me to accept help when needed and showed me that there are friends out there that love you for you and want to help make your life easier when you need it!  I was so thankful to spend time with her this weekend and I will miss her so much!

I felt very convicted over another friend this weekend.  She is one that ALWAYS calls first, always asks my little girl over, and is the first to reach out to me!  I am bad at returning calls, setting up play dates and just picking up the phone for no reason to see how she is!  I wish I would have done that more when I lived in Baytown.  I have decided to write her and tell her that I am sorry for being a bad friend and am praying that she doesn't see me that way but if she has or did that she will forgive me!  I was so blessed to be able to spend quality time with her this weekend after our party and it was then that I realized what a good friend she is.  I will miss her and wish I would not have take her for granted!

"As we change, so do our friendships. Friendships are not just given, they must be earned and they must be invested in. They are delicate and at times they can either bloom or wither. They don’t bloom without being watered by compassion, understanding, care and laughs."

~Taken from a blog entry I read recently!

I have been hurt by friends to.  I have recently felt like I have gone through a change with one friend that has been so hurtful.  I get mad one minute and cry the next!  I don't understand it.  I may never totally understand and I pray that God can give me peace about it all.  It's beyond my control and I need to accept that!  The day we announced we were moving I felt like I was written off so to speak.  I tried my best to not let it wither but reality is it did and seems to continue too!  It's one of those moments where you wonder if it was a friendship of a season and that can be hurtful to both sides.  If it's the end of our season I will mourn it for a long time.  I will pray that God continues to bless her and I pray that one day she will have that friend that is for a lifetime!  

New friendships.....I made friends with someone recently through her son being friends with Taylor and fell in love!  She is kind, she is sensitive, she loves the Lord and I am blessed to have her!

Old childhood best friend......I never feel far apart from her!  She knows me better than probably anyone in this world and I am blessed by her!  I have another friend that her son and Taylor have been best friends since about 2nd grade and we have grown our friendship too!  She and I both have five kids and we just GET each other!  I know we are friends forever! 

Church friends.....I was so blessed at Second to make so many friends!  I miss them each Sunday that I walk into a church knowing no one!  I know that will change soon but it still makes me sad!  

I will end with this.....

I remember a friend looking at me with tears in her eyes early on in our friendship and telling me "I pray that we are more than seasonal friends!" I totally agreed with her and said I am praying we are too!  From that day forward we both watered our friendship, gave each other compassion and boy do we laugh like crazy!!!  

Since announcing our move I have found that I had friends that never even said a word or some that never responded to the invite for our party and that made me stop and think and for a minute and my heart hurt but then that night I looked around at the people that truly love us, some that were not there and others that were there that I would have never thought would come and it was then that I realized how blessed our life in Baytown was!  

So as we go through our seasons we have to be sure and water each friendship and we certainly need to have compassion and understanding, and most of all acceptance that they are not perfect and do things differently than we do.  You never know which friend will come into your life that will be a friend soul mate!  You may be blessed to have many or just one!  

In case you are trying to guess.....Tracy is the one that said she hoped we were not seasonal friends!  Turns out we aren't!

The couples friends that travel together, laugh together and love together stay together!

I will miss my girl time! 

That was a great night!  

The ladies retreat!  WE laughed until we cried!

I miss that time in my life!  What a great weekend that was!

Jun 24, 2014

Where have I been?

Home!!!!  I have been busy getting my house in order and all the millions of boxes unloaded and put in their right place!  Sarita Farms is coming together!  Slowly but surely........
We are enjoying cool evenings on our front porch.  The breeze is unreal!

We rescued two of the sweetest dogs ever!  They mind, they are sweet and they have a MEAN bark.  They sound and look mean but are big ol' softies.  I don't know why anyone would have given them up!

We have started attending a new church!  It is amazing.  The building and facilities are amazing.  The music is amazing. The preacher is amazing.  We are so excited to get involved and get to know people!

Boys and Girl's restrooms!

We are loving the country life.  I won't lie and say that I don't itch at all times still......fear snakes.....don't go outside at night yet by myself.  I am always scanning my surroundings!  I am ALWAYS on the lookout for the resident skunk that we smell a lot in the middle of the night!
I love the trees, the beautiful flowers we have and the breeze!  The people of Sarita and Kingsville are very nice people.  I have not encountered one rude person yet and have not gone to the store without have a conversation with at least one person!  Very friendly!

Marc loves to go exploring as he calls it!  Sometimes it's just he and Jesse and sometimes its all of us!

I am also enjoying having ALL my kids under this roof!  Taylor is home and about to start work with his dad!  He finally, after wanting one for as long as I can remember, got his German Shepherd and he is on could nine!

May 28, 2014


Over the years I have noticed that hubby and I both are not big fans of change.  We know that this time in our life is God led for sure but it's still hard to see the dynamics of our family change.  I love our new house, hubby's new career change, our small town we now call home but I can't shake the sad feeling of leaving a huge part of my heart in Baytown!

That part of my heart is a 6 foot tall, blue eyed, dirty blonde haired, man child that I love with my WHOLE heart!!!

I knew this day would come and I knew I would be sad but never did I think that knot in my throat would be there most of the day.  I read an article this morning that got me to really thinking and this statement she said hit me like a ton of bricks......

It is graduation season. "Once he crosses that stage, once he takes his diploma in hand, he will begin to drift away."

What if that is true?  I am not sure if that blog is faith based but I do think that their is some truth to that statement.  It means leaving the nest, which Taylor has already done, going to college, me not knowing where he is at all times, trusting that he is making the best decisions, and really drifting away to becoming his own man!

My prayer today is that he drift in the right direction......that he drift towards God and not away from him!  I am praying for me.....for me to let go and in a healthy way!  I pray that God is preparing that future for Taylor and preparing his future spouse!
I am clinging to the thought that my baby has grown up and even if he is gone from my home he is still MY son.  No one can ever take that from me......the memory of being the ripe age of 22 when I felt him grown inside of me....nursing him for one whole year.......sending him to mother's day out for the first time.......putting him at BCA in kinder when we didn't even know how we would pay for it......being blessed to stay home and never miss an important event in his life and most recently the feeling of pride watching him walk across that stage and receive his diploma!

One thing I don't want to forget about graduation night is a gift I, along with Taylor and his Dad, got from Dr. Cimpean, who is the dean of high school.   I won't share it here but I was feeling some feelings guilt and he had just the right words at just the right time that night that I will NEVER forget!  He may never know how God used him that night!

So I will close in saying that I pray that I never know my son "a little less" as the article read but that I continue to know him in different far I have known him as a baby, a toddler, a preteen, a teenager and I look forward to knowing him as a man, a husband and one day a dad!!!!

I am trying not too!!!!