Jun 30, 2014

Country Living is......(what I didn't know!)

1.  Fleas, ticks, snakes and any other bug known to mankind!

2.  Having an owl live in your shop!  

3.  Hubby thinking he was being eaten when a screeching owl screamed while he was at the well pump one night!

4.  Having a horse come right up your driveway!

5.  Having a skunk walk right passed you and through your yard like it's no big deal!

6.  Having a home phone!  I mean like one you plug into a phone jack and not a cordless!  (I guess I need an answering machine next!)

7.  Having FOUR dogs.....yes, Marc told the kids they could each get a dog when we moved!  Luckily, Noah really isn't a dog lover so FOUR it is!

8.  Dirty kids every evening from playing long and hard outside all day!

9.  Evening talks on the porch or early morning coffee on the porch!

10.  Finding a foot of a bird in your washer after washing towels your puppy got sick on!

11.  Having the lady at the post office know you by name an be the sweetest lady ever!

12.  Watching little lizards run all through the yard.  They are fast and big!!!!

13.  No window treatments needed!

14.  Having a bat fly on your porch late at night while sitting outside!  Talk about a heart attack!

15.  My driveway seems a mile long!

16.  Beautiful wild flowers and bougainvilleas!

17.  The wind is always blowing.

18.  STARS at night are big and bright!!!!!!!

19.  Just seeing God's beautiful creation each morning I wake up!

20.  Having all my chicks under one roof in a house and town that I know God called us too!

I wouldn't trade this country living for anything in the world!!!!!


Jun 26, 2014

Friendships......

Since our move I have thought a lot about friendships and what they mean to me!  I have thought about what kind of friend I am......the good and the bad.  Sadly, I am both.   After our party this weekend I realized that.
I have sat alone in this house and analyzed a lot of my friendships and came to this realization of a few.......

I (we) have friends (two couples) that no matter how much time goes by we will always be friends, we will pick up right where we left off and they feel more like family then they do friends.  That will never change.  They are not friends of a season they were sent to us through God!  They are blessings for sure!

I have friends that I don't talk to on a daily basis but are always there when I need them and just help out when needed without even asking.  They love me for me and know what I need when I need it. I fail at that part.....I sometimes feel like I have my plate full with my kids that I don't think of the needs (the bringing meals, picking up their kids, etc.....) of my friends.  I have a very dear friend that was the first one to teach me to accept help when needed and showed me that there are friends out there that love you for you and want to help make your life easier when you need it!  I was so thankful to spend time with her this weekend and I will miss her so much!

I felt very convicted over another friend this weekend.  She is one that ALWAYS calls first, always asks my little girl over, and is the first to reach out to me!  I am bad at returning calls, setting up play dates and just picking up the phone for no reason to see how she is!  I wish I would have done that more when I lived in Baytown.  I have decided to write her and tell her that I am sorry for being a bad friend and am praying that she doesn't see me that way but if she has or did that she will forgive me!  I was so blessed to be able to spend quality time with her this weekend after our party and it was then that I realized what a good friend she is.  I will miss her and wish I would not have take her for granted!

"As we change, so do our friendships. Friendships are not just given, they must be earned and they must be invested in. They are delicate and at times they can either bloom or wither. They don’t bloom without being watered by compassion, understanding, care and laughs."

~Taken from a blog entry I read recently!

I have been hurt by friends to.  I have recently felt like I have gone through a change with one friend that has been so hurtful.  I get mad one minute and cry the next!  I don't understand it.  I may never totally understand and I pray that God can give me peace about it all.  It's beyond my control and I need to accept that!  The day we announced we were moving I felt like I was written off so to speak.  I tried my best to not let it wither but reality is it did and seems to continue too!  It's one of those moments where you wonder if it was a friendship of a season and that can be hurtful to both sides.  If it's the end of our season I will mourn it for a long time.  I will pray that God continues to bless her and I pray that one day she will have that friend that is for a lifetime!  

New friendships.....I made friends with someone recently through her son being friends with Taylor and fell in love!  She is kind, she is sensitive, she loves the Lord and I am blessed to have her!

Old friends.....my childhood best friend......I never feel far apart from her!  She knows me better than probably anyone in this world and I am blessed by her!  I have another friend that her son and Taylor have been best friends since about 2nd grade and we have grown our friendship too!  She and I both have five kids and we just GET each other!  I know we are friends forever! 

Church friends.....I was so blessed at Second to make so many friends!  I miss them each Sunday that I walk into a church knowing no one!  I know that will change soon but it still makes me sad!  

I will end with this.....

I remember a friend looking at me with tears in her eyes early on in our friendship and telling me "I pray that we are more than seasonal friends!" I totally agreed with her and said I am praying we are too!  From that day forward we both watered our friendship, gave each other compassion and boy do we laugh like crazy!!!  

Since announcing our move I have found that I had friends that never even said a word or some that never responded to the invite for our party and that made me stop and think and for a minute and my heart hurt but then that night I looked around at the people that truly love us, some that were not there and others that were there that I would have never thought would come and it was then that I realized how blessed our life in Baytown was!  

So as we go through our seasons we have to be sure and water each friendship and we certainly need to have compassion and understanding, and most of all acceptance that they are not perfect and do things differently than we do.  You never know which friend will come into your life that will be a friend soul mate!  You may be blessed to have many or just one!  

In case you are trying to guess.....Tracy is the one that said she hoped we were not seasonal friends!  Turns out we aren't!

The couples friends that travel together, laugh together and love together stay together!

I will miss my girl time! 

That was a great night!  

The ladies retreat!  WE laughed until we cried!

I miss that time in my life!  What a great weekend that was!

Jun 24, 2014

Where have I been?

Home!!!!  I have been busy getting my house in order and all the millions of boxes unloaded and put in their right place!  Sarita Farms is coming together!  Slowly but surely........
We are enjoying cool evenings on our front porch.  The breeze is unreal!


We rescued two of the sweetest dogs ever!  They mind, they are sweet and they have a MEAN bark.  They sound and look mean but are big ol' softies.  I don't know why anyone would have given them up!



We have started attending a new church!  It is amazing.  The building and facilities are amazing.  The music is amazing. The preacher is amazing.  We are so excited to get involved and get to know people!


Boys and Girl's restrooms!

We are loving the country life.  I won't lie and say that I don't itch at all times still......fear snakes.....don't go outside at night yet by myself.  I am always scanning my surroundings!  I am ALWAYS on the lookout for the resident skunk that we smell a lot in the middle of the night!
I love the trees, the beautiful flowers we have and the breeze!  The people of Sarita and Kingsville are very nice people.  I have not encountered one rude person yet and have not gone to the store without have a conversation with at least one person!  Very friendly!

Marc loves to go exploring as he calls it!  Sometimes it's just he and Jesse and sometimes its all of us!



I am also enjoying having ALL my kids under this roof!  Taylor is home and about to start work with his dad!  He finally, after wanting one for as long as I can remember, got his German Shepherd and he is on could nine!






May 28, 2014

Change!

Over the years I have noticed that hubby and I both are not big fans of change.  We know that this time in our life is God led for sure but it's still hard to see the dynamics of our family change.  I love our new house, hubby's new career change, our small town we now call home but I can't shake the sad feeling of leaving a huge part of my heart in Baytown!

That part of my heart is a 6 foot tall, blue eyed, dirty blonde haired, man child that I love with my WHOLE heart!!!

I knew this day would come and I knew I would be sad but never did I think that knot in my throat would be there most of the day.  I read an article this morning that got me to really thinking and this statement she said hit me like a ton of bricks......

It is graduation season. "Once he crosses that stage, once he takes his diploma in hand, he will begin to drift away."

What if that is true?  I am not sure if that blog is faith based but I do think that their is some truth to that statement.  It means leaving the nest, which Taylor has already done, going to college, me not knowing where he is at all times, trusting that he is making the best decisions, and really drifting away to becoming his own man!

My prayer today is that he drift in the right direction......that he drift towards God and not away from him!  I am praying for me.....for me to let go and in a healthy way!  I pray that God is preparing that future for Taylor and preparing his future spouse!
I am clinging to the thought that my baby has grown up and even if he is gone from my home he is still MY son.  No one can ever take that from me......the memory of being the ripe age of 22 when I felt him grown inside of me....nursing him for one whole year.......sending him to mother's day out for the first time.......putting him at BCA in kinder when we didn't even know how we would pay for it......being blessed to stay home and never miss an important event in his life and most recently the feeling of pride watching him walk across that stage and receive his diploma!

One thing I don't want to forget about graduation night is a gift I, along with Taylor and his Dad, got from Dr. Cimpean, who is the dean of high school.   I won't share it here but I was feeling some feelings guilt and he had just the right words at just the right time that night that I will NEVER forget!  He may never know how God used him that night!

So I will close in saying that I pray that I never know my son "a little less" as the article read but that I continue to know him in different ways.....so far I have known him as a baby, a toddler, a preteen, a teenager and I look forward to knowing him as a man, a husband and one day a dad!!!!

I am trying not too!!!!






May 9, 2014

Biblical Submission.......

A week or so ago I watched The View.....ONLY because Candace Cameron Bure was guest hosting.  God Bless her for putting herself through that!  Of course seconds after she comes out they get her book out and start questioning her about the part where she talks about submitting to her husband and Barbara looks at her in her serious, interviewing face and says "Is this something in the Bible?"  REALLY????

She has been accused of setting aside her own desires and dreams for the sake of being submissive!  Wonder if anyone has ever thought that maybe being the best mom she can be,  a great wife and Christ follower is a desire and dream of hers!

Anyway, it got me to thinking about this subject and even questioning myself if I "Biblically Submit" to my hubby fully and I think that I do or at least try.  I haven't always but over the many years of being married I have learned that it makes for a better marriage when you do!  The years I spent not being a Biblical wife I almost found myself divorced.  (Not saying at all that it was all my fault....just saying when we BOTH decided to be Biblical spouses things improved greatly!)

I also asked a few people that I really respect and know they have a great marriage what their definition of this was but first I asked my hubby and here was his answer........

"Biblical submission in marriage is most often associated negatively with authority over someone as in one is higher or better than the other. It is actually the complete opposite. If one is truly a follower of Christ then there is a burning desire to please their spouse and submit to them out of love. In turn the other spouse would want to do the  same. Each submitting to one another in a selfless manner.

In the way a follower should submit to Christ through a personal relationship where Christ completely guides our life should be the template for how a marriage should be.
  
Biblical submission is not about authority its all about attitude."

I agree completely with him!  On The View they asked Candace if she ever "won" a fight with her husband and she handled herself so well!  She told them there is no winning.  You get your say but in the end the husband is the head of the household and he makes the ultimate decision but if done right the decision is almost always agreed upon anyway.

Here was the answer from my friend when I asked her what her definition was......so this is the wife's version.  Her and her husband have been married a long time and are crazy about each other to this day!  I am sure they aren't perfect but they have it right for sure!

1 - hold your tongue, 2 - respect his decisions, 3 - let him be in charge, 4 - try to cooperate with him in decision making, etc. That may not be really what your looking for…let me try again. Submission in marriage is when the wife (even though she may be "stronger" in some things) let's the husband be the "man" of the house. She respects and upholds his decisions and "steps back" when she sees that he has strong feelings about something and even if she disagrees, as long as it's not against Biblical principles, will go along with it. It's the toughest when the wife is a strong personality (like me!) and has to "give in" sometimes because she is the "weaker vessel".

I loved her answer and even though those things can be hard to do we, as wives, should practice that more! The man was made to be the head of the household and we were made to serve along side of him! When this is done it really does make a huge difference. We, as women though have to be willing to try!

I have decided that I am going to really start studying what the Bible says on this and how I can honor God in my marriage and how I am at being a wife! I wish people wouldn't associate the word "submission" with something so bad! If they saw it the way God did there would be a lot less divorce in this world!

As I study I will share more thoughts from marriages I respect and pattern after and will share them with you!

God Bless!

Here is a clip of Candace talking about it! (Remember her as DJ Tanner on Full House?)








May 7, 2014

WHY? you ask!!

I know I really don't have to give an explanation but almost everyday I get asked about Taylor and why he's not going with us to Sarita.  So here it is......

First, let me say that this decision was not easy at all!  It came with lots of tears on my part and a lot of hesitation but after talking it out a lot with each other and with Taylor and most importantly PRAYER we decided to let him stay here for the summer and get a job.

He has been so blessed to have been asked by at least three GREAT families to live with them until he goes to college!  He chose the house he already spends a lot of time at anyway and feels at home!
Mamma Kay, as the boys call her, is such a precious lady and as Taylor says is a great cook!  I know she is taking good care of my boy.  It's him I worry about.....he can be a slob!!  LOL

I am 41 but I do remember when I was his age and his Dad and I were dating.  If my parents or his parents would have said they were moving to the country in a small town where we knew no one we would not have wanted to go either.  Heck, Marc and I were saying we were getting married at that time and a year later we did!

Taylor has lots of friends and a girlfriend here and I know he doesn't want to leave them.  He will already be leaving most of them in August and some it might be the last time to see them.  College means new friends and only some old ones do you stay connected with.

Does that mean he doesn't love us or wants to be away from us?  No!  Actually, he is having a difficult time adjusting to this new way of life for us too!  I pray that he starts to feel at home soon and has a great summer before it's time to enter the real world!

He and I talk every day......a few times a day!  I text him each morning to see if he's up ready for school and he lets me know where he is at all times!   While we are here in the hotel in Baytown he comes to see us, eats with us, and has a brother date on Friday with his little brothers.

As sad as I was to watch him pull away that Thursday evening I know God is telling me that he's 18 and we are just moving on to a new stage in life.  It's time for him to be a man and to grow up some more!  I have probably been what some call a helicopter mom and have been accused many times of being over protective and trying to control everything he does, says, wears, etc.......
God has really spoke to me over the past month and is telling me to let him spread his wings even if that means he makes a mistake here and there!  That is what grows up in life!  That's hard!  My natural momma instinct is to protect him for all hurt and problems!

So that is it in a nutshell on my part and here is a text my boy sent me last week that are his thoughts in a nutshell........ (this post was not easy......the knot is back and tears, tears, tears!!!!)


Apr 30, 2014

What I Will Miss........

I was thinking today about all of the things I will miss about this hometown of mine......the only hometown I have ever known!

I will miss my friends......my two best friends that I have shared more with than anyone!  I will miss the closeness we have, the prayers we have shared, the secrets we share, the encouragement, the wisdom and most of all the laughs until we cry!!!!!
I know I am not losing that but knowing they are five minutes away is what I am losing and will miss.

I will miss you date nights, family dinner nights, summer nights by the pool and grilling out!

I will miss being able to just call my childhood best friend and meet for dinner and pick up right where we left off.

I will miss my kids running around this wonderful neighborhood we live in.  The one where I know at least two people on every street and I know they are safe!
I will miss the sweet kids down the street putting their noses up to the door to peek in and see if they kids are home!

I will miss BCA and Wee School and the familiarity of them both!  I will miss seeing so many moms that I love in the car line and catching up real quick before having to move forward!

I will miss Taylor's class and all the moms from his class that I love along with some great boys and girls that I have watched grow up!

I will miss having Taylor here every day.....even if he's in his room most of the time!  At least he's home with us.

I already miss having a church home.  We pretty much left our church a few months ago and I have missed a lot of people there and the feeling of being home when I am there.
I miss the excitement on wondering how God is going to speak to me that Sunday!  I miss being involved and needed.
(We do watch a church we plan to attend once we move on youtube on Sunday evenings and we can not wait to actually attend a service!)

I will miss our lovely mall!  OK JUST KIDDING!  I won't miss that!!!!

I will miss knowing where everything is.

I will miss this house.  I love this house.  I love the pool, the outdoor kitchen and most of all the fireplace outside!

I will miss seeing so many of Noah and Jesse's friends grow up!

I am excited to make a new life, with new friends, new memories and a new church but I will never forget my life here and the people that are so important to me!